To reach deeper...

I've played music as long as I can remember. Ever since the first time my parents allowed me to sit in front of a piano and I discovered where those sounds came from, I've been obsessed with music. A very wise man once told me that bands come and go - but the music lasts forever. I have learned that the hard way. I have learned more about people from playing music with other people than I have from any other walk of life; probably because that's what 90% of my social life consists of. None-the-less it is true.
So what of the title? To reach deeper than before. To find meaning in things. These are good ideas, but what's the real focus? Truth is, there isn't one. Music, like any other art form will mean certain things to certain people, and to others it will mean nothing. Thus it's meaning is totally relative to the listener. But what I want to talk about, it what it means to the writer.
This is where I feel that much of modern music falls short. So many people out to make money, or become famous, or whatever - but they're not really musicians...and the musicians that are putting the stuff out there - rich as hell they may be - they're expressionless. The "point" of the music is to make money, not to inspire - not to convey a feeling across to others. I've fallen victim to this ideology of writing in some aspects. I've let "what's good" get confused with "what might sell" - etc.
The honest truth with me is that I get a sense of accomplishment just from completing a song when it has true meaning to me. An even bigger sense of accomplishment comes when someone else appreciates the work - whether or not they understand it or not. Maybe by reaching deeper into the unknown so that I can write solely from inspiration may mean a different reaction than hoped for...maybe it will take me further than ever before...the point is, it's not about where I'm going when I write a song - it's about the inspiration from the song itself...it's about where I've been.